a visual journey: Road Blocks

‎"The times I have the most to say are the times I can't talk"

I feel perplexed by the truth and frequency of this statement. I wish I could find the right words when they are truly needed. Words that do not sound insensitive or a jumbled mess. It always seems to take me far too long to unclutter my head enough to find the source of my muteness and to open up. Most people are not patient enough to stick around long enough to hear those deep vulnerable parts. The spoken word has never been my friend.

My life has been on an emotional roller coaster for the past year and a half. There are moments that I am able to quite my mind, look at fears, and come to the realization that this journey, this soul path that I have embarked on, is exactly where I need to be. That in this journey I will become strong. I can't wiggle back into that former skin that no longer fits. Even though I have been running into road blocks, such as my hysterectomy, the path is still there... and I long to sprint down it fearlessly.

14 comments:

pedalpower said...: These are such moving pages. Very powerful!; June 11, 2012 at 9:15 PM
Lisa Cheney said...: :) Thank you Joyce. It is always scary to put work like this out there, however with friends like you who over the past few years have always been gentle, encouraging and supportive I now feel safe exposing my vulnerable bits. A very deep thank you. xoxo; June 11, 2012 at 10:14 PM
Tracey FK said...: wow... I am blown away by these pages... thank you sooo much for sharing such personal pages... your work inspires me so much and your skills are just insane... one day I will get my skills to where yours are, and find the courage to put things out there like this...xx; June 11, 2012 at 11:14 PM
Mumure said...: Totally stunning pages!So powerfull!Gorgeous way to express your feelings.; June 12, 2012 at 2:04 AM
emily said...: I was very humbled by your question about being broken. Something that we all struggle with. Sending you prayers for healing.; June 12, 2012 at 7:22 PM
Polly said...: Lisa - I remember so many of these same feelings and questions after I had my hysterectomy several years ago. Praying for your journey to lead you to strength and healing. Thank you for sharing your work...as always, I am inspired.; June 19, 2012 at 6:57 AM
Dawn E. Shepherd Nguyen said...: No, you are not broken.
Thank you for sharing these very personal pages - it helps us readers become more brave too. I pray for your healing and speedy recovery.
You are awesome!
Love,
Dawn; June 20, 2012 at 5:49 PM
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Serena Lewis said...: A beautifully illustrated and moving post. I will be getting a hysterectomy in the coming months. I'm keen to get my uterine issues finally dealt with but I'm not looking forward to the recovery part at all. Btw, here the standard time in hospital for a hysterectomy (partial or traditional) can be anywhere between 3 to 7 days but definitely not overnight.; June 23, 2012 at 1:52 AM
Serena Lewis said...: Ooooooops, I meant to wish you well and, NO, definitely NOT broken. xo; June 23, 2012 at 1:53 AM
Lisa Cheney said...: Thank you all for your kind comments. Slowly, slowly healing from the inside out.

Serena, I wish you much luck and a speedy recovery on your hysterectomy. Yes, one day was not nearly enough time, I could have easily stayed another night or two.

Hugs to each of you!
Lisa; June 26, 2012 at 6:06 PM
Liesel said...: Bless you Lisa! Your art is so powerful, beautiful and evocative. You are brave for sharing and for being! xoxo Liesel; June 27, 2012 at 9:08 PM
J Walters said...: Hello - I've posted your wonderful work on my Sketches & Jottings blog this morning. Amazing portfolio, exquisite journals. Thank you.; August 3, 2012 at 7:37 AM
Anonymous said...: WOW! Beautiful images...Gary; April 1, 2013 at 6:18 AM